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1/1/26 - 11:12 PM
the end of the year swept me up and i didnt have a chance to update my site for a bit! i'll keep my reflection concise and focused on art-related stuff and save the larger thoughts for my journal lol.
good year! a bit of a transitional year career-wise. lost a good bit of momentum from quitting that weird animation job i had at the end of 2024. it was a rocky three months working there but i'm glad i learned a lot from it and it was actually very helpful in helping my feel out what kind of job i'd like in the future! great learning opportinuty and i made the most of my time there.
im super thankful i had a lot of time to myself to reflect and grow and find out what the move is. very thankful for all my friends that i talked to and seeked guidance from! gave me a good push in the trajectory i was already headed towards! making stuff independently for fun.
at the end of the day i like doing my own stuff and i don't even really know if im cut out for traditional studio animation jobs as they exist today and as i am now. my school didn't really prepare me so a lot of the skills i have for that environment are self-taught. there are areas of working with a team on a production i'd definitely like working in and be good at. but working that rocky job was very unprofessional (it was a small company so there was a lot to deal with even just outside of everything being mismanaged) and it was creatively draining to be in charge of everything. i'd like to do more personal stuff before i try to ride the horse of working in a big production again. given the current state of things tho i wouldnt be surprised if the industry is even worse than it is now in one year. either way i'll do what i always do and stay flexible and keep my options open
i love my retail job! i love talking to people and connecting with them about common nerd interests. all my coworkers are awesome, i feel more connected to the community and people around me, i get to look at cool movies, music, and games all day, and my creative drive is back! i wanna make stuff! being unemployed for a while and having too much freedom with time and obligations kind of sucks away that drive after a while. i don't know if i'd say my job is fulfilling, but it's definitely enriching. i love people and talking to strangers and making friends.
it's kind of crazy that my drive is back to the point where now i'm committing to one video every month this year. i can definitely do it and i think it'll challenge me in a good and healthy way! with everything i've got goin on right now i just hope this challenge i've put on myself doesn't burn me out. i think i'm set up in a position where this won't burn me out but only time will tell! i believe. and apparently so do many of you!
the response to my patreon video i posted this morning has been very kind :D so many nice messages from friends and comments from people excited for what's to come. i won't let u guys down! let's all pop off this year.